Current mood:	okay
Current music:	Turn, Turn,Turn -Bryds - The Bryds
Entry tags:	medical

Current state of things

My Husband is doing much better. He can walk, sort of, with a lot of assistance. I keep bugging him to go see the torturers but he wants to wait until he’s out of pain. Which I think is dumb, because he needs the help now. I’m concerned that he is not going to get full use of the leg back if he doesn’t see the PT’s soon.

He’s down to 228 pounds, which is almost where the BMI says he should be for his height. We are going to have to go on a major shopping spree when he is able; everything is too big, including his shoes! A fact I find very funny.

 My MiL thinks he is way too thin and keeps trying to get him to eat more so “he doesn’t fade away”. She’s still having issues with the whole sodium/liquid thing.  As consequence of that My Husband is sick to death of salads. He’s getting them at two of three meals every day. And he is even sicker of oil and vinegar dressing. I’ve been making low sodium dressings for him but they don’t last very long.

I’m doing better personally; I’ve finally figured out the right timing for my drugs and now getting about 6-7 hours of uninterrupted sleep a night. That is helping a lot. I have also discovered that I like what the Zoloft does for and to me. I’m not crying at odd moments or at no reason. I can actually think, instead of this over whelming blackness that was covering my mind.  I like this me. The Zoloft is also helping in other ways: things that use to drive me nuts don’t bother me anywhere as much. I can also let things go much easier, the things that use to eat away at my brain and keep me up at night, running around in circles through my mind, don’t anymore. I think they are still there, because my shoulders are still tight and I find that I’m gritting my teeth but not to the point of pain any more. I’m hoping that the drugs will help me to learn the difference between things that I need to be concerned about and the things that I should let go without the glands getting involved.

Since I’m not so desperately tired, I’ve been cleaning, a lot. I’ve also rediscovered some old friends. I’ve read all theVorkosigan books and am currently working my way through all the Discworld books. We have all but two; this should keep me in books for at least a month if I’m careful and only read one per day. Much to my annoyance I seem to be missing the third Ozark book. I know I have, I just can’t find it.